Spilled Expresso

New Year's Eve/Day is so overrated. For most of us, it is just another day to party or feel like a schmuck for not partying. It is a time for making resolutions we often have no intention of keeping.
"I'm going to lose 10 pounds!"
"I'm going to the gym every day!"
"I'm giving up smoking"
January 1 often marks the day that people start their diet. They eat salads, jog, go to the gym, trade their coffee in for green tea. It's the day they head to their local drug store stock up on Nicotine gum and patches, in attempt to kick the butt to the curb. By March, many of these people will have said "F**k it!" and light up "just once" or eaten chocolate cake. Treadmills and assorted fitness gadgets ("How the hell does this thing work anyway?") have begun starting to collect dust or become lost in the underworld beneath the bed or that "random stuff drawer" and guilt begins to set at teh realization that a resolution has been broken again.
Despite this, there is something about New Year's. While I am hardly the party girl and feel stressed and pressured to do something major on NYE, I do enjoy the concept of fresh start. Technically, every day is a fresh start, as Anne Shirley would say "Tommorow is Fresh w/ no mistakes in it!" But still having a date and time table to achieve certain goals in.
I guess my goal for 2010 is to gain some direction. Not just in my career aspirations,, but in general.I need to figure out : What do I want? And How to get it. Oh, and I need to allow myself to believe that I am able and deserving to get it.
So welcome 2010, Here's looking at you, Kid.